fall rain love

Have you ever do something that you shouldn't do? Not because it's against law or something serious like that but you just need to know how it feels after doing that and you ended up having the thing lingering on your mind all day long. Often happened in my past few relationships, my curiosity led me to lotsa things that i shouldn't have known. The fact that i could just live happily and love lavishly if i didn't do it, i totally ignored it. I just had to do it as when i set my mind that i should do the thing, i'll do it. Funny thing is no matter how i love or appreciate that person, the feeling is just gone in a snap.

what if i tell you.. first few hours after finished watching the last episode, i thought someone might just kill me just because of they feel like to. wtf but really. i even cried cause when i woke up, i was home alone. dialed my bf to come, turns out that he's late as ever that i have to rush to see the kitchen boys. Later that day, i had to throw tantrum cause of something that the anxiety gone with the wind. When the night comes, i set it up to myself that it's all only in my mind. wtf and now i'm stress free. SPOILER ALERT!! . . . . I was excited to watch at first but then when i realised that all of the victims are mostly young and innocent GIRLS and there were mostly no motives at all. THE cases happened cause the SUSPECT has desire to kill or even power to protect themselves. Which is actually quite realistic. What i cannot accept the most is how the current detective communicate with the past detective and actually the future might change if they even

18-21 November 2013 Dad got some work to do around Parapat, so mama and I tagged along. From Medan, it takes around 4 hrs drive back then. Not sure about now, maybe after three years, some changes are made? What's famous about this Lake is it is the largest lake in Southest Asia and were made from eruption and the cone of the volcano collapsed and made the Samosir Island, which is just on the centre of Danau Toba. To reach Samosir Island, you must ride on a ferry. I went there once or twice for school excursion.   I was so obsessed with my ring back then.   Even three years ago, i couldn't open my eyes for the sunshine. lol. Fifteen minutes drive from parapat, we visited the detention house of the very first president of Indonesia, Soekarno. Due to political reasons back then, he had to move here for awhile. If i am not mistaken, it should be around 1946-1948, just a few years after Indonesia proclaimed INDEPENDENcy and were still fighting for the right

So after like one year or so i finally bother to change the timezone and set up the location. Location is unnecessary, i just wanted to try it out. time really flies, it's halfway to 2017 already. Been lacking out of praying these days, not that i'm not grateful but . . . . . . OKAY OKAY. I ALWAYS TAKE BEING BLESSED AS GRANTED till now's there's a reason to pray and apologise again. This cycle, over and over again. Grateful->Blessed->Always Blessed->Starting to take it for granted(never say Grace nor pray, etc)-> unpleasant thing happened-> Seek for help->Grateful Then one thing that i realise that, no matter how we always forget about God(or whoever you believed in), when you seek for help, God's always ready for you, ignoring the fact that you're -ehem- less unfaithful. Well, that happens to me. all the time. Speaking of which, I'm now into Signal, another nerve wrecking Korean Drama by tVn. On ep 9 now, i find the movie really scar