I notice that i'm not as good as i used to be, in mind reading. Or he's just one particular person i could never understand thoroughly. What people has been roaming about is true, when your life gets older, your circle tends to be smaller and smaller, and in some ways, you like it that way. Your best friend is someone who will have your back, and always come back to you no matter what.
Don't ask me why but those sentences just surf into my mind as it's 2.25 AM and although i keep on yawning, brain just won't shut down. Why coffee why.
When i was young, my biggest fear was only my parents divorcing and them leaving me. But as i grow up, that objective is still there, but that's not the only one. Now i got tonshits of list to be considerate of yet to think of and to take care of. Most of the days, i don't really care but when it comes to sleepless night like this, my mind races up and down, left and right, back and forth. What is this life supposed to mean? Am I living it right? Shouldn't it be this way or that way or even no way? What's my intestine doing now? Is it doing alright as usually i'm supposedly be sleeping. Hasn't i been living over Indo for the past 18 years, how can my body convert to Australian time just in a year? Or maybe since the third day. How could that happened? Will that be possible without God's Love? Do we really need to depends on God to survive this cruelity of the world? What if i am born deaf, will i take things for granted too? Does he really love me? Why do I love him? Why him, if you wanna go back Indo at first place? Will I get bored too? Or bored is just a reason to make them feel less guilty? Out of those times when i told people not to pity me, ever never they listen? What should I do to be better? Am i doing things right? Should I just not care?
Don't ask me why but those sentences just surf into my mind as it's 2.25 AM and although i keep on yawning, brain just won't shut down. Why coffee why.
When i was young, my biggest fear was only my parents divorcing and them leaving me. But as i grow up, that objective is still there, but that's not the only one. Now i got tonshits of list to be considerate of yet to think of and to take care of. Most of the days, i don't really care but when it comes to sleepless night like this, my mind races up and down, left and right, back and forth. What is this life supposed to mean? Am I living it right? Shouldn't it be this way or that way or even no way? What's my intestine doing now? Is it doing alright as usually i'm supposedly be sleeping. Hasn't i been living over Indo for the past 18 years, how can my body convert to Australian time just in a year? Or maybe since the third day. How could that happened? Will that be possible without God's Love? Do we really need to depends on God to survive this cruelity of the world? What if i am born deaf, will i take things for granted too? Does he really love me? Why do I love him? Why him, if you wanna go back Indo at first place? Will I get bored too? Or bored is just a reason to make them feel less guilty? Out of those times when i told people not to pity me, ever never they listen? What should I do to be better? Am i doing things right? Should I just not care?
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