fall rain love

Following the quote "if it doesn't bother you till the next day, don't bother thinking of it" Ready to pen them down yet my fingers are stuck between the keyboards not knowing where to start from. Too young to determine the future, yet too fragile to be broken. In this situation, mind races to everywhere, worst to worst, stumbled upon the past which thee had a hard time letting go. Been taking happiness for granted though if it's meant to be then it is. One day, there's a kid, her name is Lucy. Lucy loves lollipop. But due to Lucy's health, she is banned from lollipop. Yet, everyday on her way to school, she sadly stare at other kids, cheerfully having their lollipop while talking to other friends about the flavor. She is isolated from the world and decided to go on without lollipop. Lollipop problem is solved. Cause Lucy is a strong girl and Lollipop doesn't have feelings. No one wants to hang out with Lucy cause she didn't have lollipop in her ch...

Have you ever do something that you shouldn't do? Not because it's against law or something serious like that but you just need to know how it feels after doing that and you ended up having the thing lingering on your mind all day long. Often happened in my past few relationships, my curiosity led me to lotsa things that i shouldn't have known. The fact that i could just live happily and love lavishly if i didn't do it, i totally ignored it. I just had to do it as when i set my mind that i should do the thing, i'll do it. Funny thing is no matter how i love or appreciate that person, the feeling is just gone in a snap.

I notice that i'm not as good as i used to be, in mind reading. Or he's just one particular person i could never understand thoroughly. What people has been roaming about is true, when your life gets older, your circle tends to be smaller and smaller, and in some ways, you like it that way. Your best friend is someone who will have your back, and always come back to you no matter what. Don't ask me why but those sentences just surf into my mind as it's 2.25 AM and although i keep on yawning, brain just won't shut down. Why coffee why. When i was young, my biggest fear was only my parents divorcing and them leaving me. But as i grow up, that objective is still there, but that's not the only one. Now i got tonshits of list to be considerate of yet to think of and to take care of. Most of the days, i don't really care but when it comes to sleepless night like this, my mind races up and down, left and right, back and forth. What is this life supposed to mean? ...

 Once my dad told me to find someone who loves me more than I do. He gave me his reasons and as usual, i made fun of it and carry on. After all of these times, i finally know why he told me so. -stories that i'll never tell. #2 Xx, Frl's wont fall