fall rain love

Hi there. Nothing new happened. Just me having tonsillitis attack back. Guess what?  This is the first on 2015 and the first time since I visited Penang. Well, it doesn’t last long. Anyway I will not get the operation done because I’m undergoing kind of a treatment? Lemme blog about it if I’m succeed with it already. Honestly, I’m feeling not ready to move to another continent only having sister around. Where’s my parents, nephews and nieces, sisters, bros in law, grandma, and families? I cannot take it for sure. Oh sorry for being so pessimistic, it must be the hormones from getting period. But really, for the past seventeen- almost eighteen years I’ve been living with all things that I wanted being served, no big deal happened in school, eat, play, laugh, sleep. That should be my cycles for years. Maybe I should pray more. Well.. another shitty post of mine. I’ll make up something interesting to write next post okay! See ya on February post! Xoxo, f.r.l 

24/1/2014 I cannot live like this. I have to let go everything but the truth hurts. I just can't. I almost tear up even by imagining the coming soon CNY without him. I am not as strong as what most of people say, I am not strong at all. I couldn't bear with my feelings. It feels like it is only yesterday i hold his hand under the hospital bed and continuously holding his hand until both of us fall asleep. Why it's hard for me to just feel okay? Tomorrow we will be going to where his body lay down at. I swear i wasn't like this last time. Maybe it's the hormones or what... no pregnancies ok, slightly period. I feel confused that day when you tell me you don't want to move house without telling me why. I asked you to share your thoughts to me but you said you just don't feel like to. I feel blessed that day on my birthday celebration, you amazingly had your memories back about your past.It's like you'd just woke up from your sleep and how you ca...

lol sorry it has to be him again. this song resembles sth that accidentally run into my head. So, why not? xoxo, f.r.l p.s.: anyway, i did my first baking last week and it turns out just right! TELL ME WHO CAN BAKE SOMETHING NOW? TELLLL MEHHHHHHHH

Teary eyes when I watch their video. Other's wedding also cannot hold on my feeling, what will happen on my " walk down the aisle " scene later? Cry a lot and make up soaked then cancel the wedding. wtf. Ok the point is Jay is a good man and that will sure make him a good husband or even a better husband. Happy Wedding, Jay & Hannah! :) I am not really into him but one of my cousin is. I haven't asked about her but I guess she will definitely feel sad. That makes me think what if GD finally got married and what would be my reaction. First thing first, if the bride is either me or kiko mizuhara then i couldn't be happier to know! Um, if it's other girl, i will thank God for letting us know that he's not gay. wtf. I won't be sad but will be grumpy why he doesn't marry kiko. lolol. Sometimes I kinda pity the celebrities because their life is critisized by their fans or netizens. The good thing is they rarely care about what ppl say or...

not to be dramatic but this song exactly tells how i was feeling last year. xoxo, f.r.l.