fall rain love

 what horrified me is :  Break you down? That was a long time ago. I even apologized for it. Didn't I?  2 years accompaniment, huh? I thank you. However, till now, i'm not looking forward your face for the third year. hurt. Hmm, you got the revenge on me now. I did throw another chance for us, but things didn't work out as I want. Ah,it might freak you out but, yes i am a cry baby, spoiled, and childish. Well, I thank you. Nonetheless, pretending that i am not spoiled is not a good idea.I'm not fake and i don't want to be. still, i thank you. I thank you for your innocence and sincere feeling for ... hmm? how long? i even don't know! oh crap, if it's like this i'm doubting the feeling right from the start.. oh,no... ................................... Well, i am just mad. why didn't you just tell me? I am not God. how can i know things easily? things may go wrong but it could be fixed. thanks to you, i'm suffering the p hilophobia....

Startled and thinking about past few years, i think, i'm gonna miss my friends! And i will absolutely miss this shitty and full of dramas high school! How we had spend our times together.We all know that time's precious, however, doing nonsense or stupid things, worth that time! sleep,eat,play,and laugh during the lesson! I am enjoying my high school and somehow my dad worries about me for having no boyfriend! Relationship is not in my "high school fun" list! at least, not for now.  I hate to see girls who cried over a boy, got the mood distracted all week after breaking up, and many more! No offense, kay! Okay, i know this is too eager,still, i could feel the pressure is here. We're leaving and will walk through different path. Will we still know each other 10 years later? I could clearly remember, when i was kid, how i wanted to grow up super fast, be a good looking young woman who works on office and have a happy family. now, let's move on... i'm...

FIRST OF NOVEMBER. Song of the month : simple things should just make us feel grateful, not to mention like the free air to breathe and others.  I've been wanting to blog about my super grandparents,and they meant so much to me. As they are getting old, they kept on saying the same thing for several or even hundred times, but i am okay with that, i mean, until now, i could still bear with it.  I love it when i'm saying goodbye to them, they always make sure that i had everything that i should have, esp. my grandma, she always remind me to bring water, keys, etc. and i love it more when i'm in rush for going downstairs, my grandpa always shouted "慢慢走,看看路,要小心." don't them sound lovely? <3 <3 <3 the little things that they created, make me feel blessed. the connection is just to lame, i'll update my post with their pictures soon. the memories with your grandparents,  keep it save in your mind. xx, f.r.l.