you were almost there.

 what horrified me is : 

Break you down? That was a long time ago. I even apologized for it. Didn't I? 

2 years accompaniment, huh? I thank you. However, till now, i'm not looking forward your face for the third year. hurt. Hmm, you got the revenge on me now. I did throw another chance for us, but things didn't work out as I want. Ah,it might freak you out but, yes i am a cry baby, spoiled, and childish. Well, I thank you. Nonetheless, pretending that i am not spoiled is not a good idea.I'm not fake and i don't want to be. still, i thank you.

I thank you for your innocence and sincere feeling for ... hmm? how long? i even don't know! oh crap, if it's like this i'm doubting the feeling right from the start.. oh,no...

...................................

Well, i am just mad. why didn't you just tell me? I am not God. how can i know things easily? things may go wrong but it could be fixed. thanks to you, i'm suffering the philophobia. wait, don't get it wrong. i'm not blaming you but i thank you. As you can see, i may be as wicked as the witch or even worse. 

My life is still along way to go, i'm declaring that i'm moving on. No more looking back and regret. Okay, absolutely bullshit if i can do it in one go. At least, I TRY. I will be very happy to know if things that you made for me is not the command for sbd else. 

Last but not least, thank you for being there when nobody else was.