NINETEEN

It's my first day enjoying my last year being a teenager. Not that i don't wanna blow candles next year, but candles without a number 2, please?

Some thoughts that came up are scary but i have good ones too. 

Like, nineteen years ago, my mum was struggling in the delivery room cause she's been admitted to the hospital for 3 days and many IV drip bags she had. The fourth afternoon she spent, i just decided to come out. Clearly still have no idea why i took that long. The reason why i know about my delivery story is because during school,I was a middle class naughty girl in the neighbourhood and the one and only in the family that my parents had to remind me how hard it was for my mom to bring me out this world. You know, folks like to say it's a life or death battle back then.

As for who I am now, i am so grateful that my parents raised me thoroughly. Along with the thought of that sleepless night they had if i fell sick. It was not easy for my mom to raise me as my dad spent most of his time out of town. When he was around, he surely make sure that he spend enough time with me. He balanced the shit outta working and spending time with family. Not forgetting, i have four great sisters, countless amazingly close uncles, aunties, and cousins, my late grandpa who also had a big role in my life and my grandma.

Moreover, i haven't really got to celebrate my birthday on the exact day. 

Last year, i was spending my birthday alone in my old apartment bedroom. It was labour day last year. I forced my mom and my sis to just go out without me. If you had forgotten, the moment i came to melbourne last year, i had chicken pox for the second time in my lifetime history.

Two years ago, I reached Medan in the evening cause my brother held his wedding at Jakarta the night before. My stupid friends made me choose my own birthday gift without telling me it would be for me. My ex picked me up from the train station and helped me with my luggage to cross over the road and met my stupid but not so stupid friends. It was short since i had to go back early and rest for a big exam the next morning.

Three years ago, i fell sick. Thats all.  Headache and any other pain, i could bear it but when it comes to nauseous, i can't. Ended up spending most of my time sleeping and a bunch of friends popped out in my sister's house. With a very high fever and red eyes, i blew the candles and sent them off. Wtf. They never see me sick before that they thought i was joking and even forced me to go out. HAHAHA

Four years ago, my ex gave me a very sweet but not good to remember surprise and before heading to dinner with familia, my friends CAME OUT OF NOWHERE AGAIN. Same thing, blew the candles, eat some cakes, take pressie from them and send them off.

Now that i know how unfriendly i was back then.

Anyhow, i am very utterly grateful for what i had and have, good and bad things that happened and will happen. I just hope that this is another year to live lavishly before i really need to think about what to do in life. Thank you, God.

Friends and family held not so surprising  early birthday surprise before i came.

Lunchdate with grandma and family

Le so called bff made it to the airport early in the morning. That he asked me to post picture to instagram of our selfie in return. 

Highschool buddies with my self picked doughnuts and bought by winiston. 😂

Highlight of the day: le boyfriend sacrificed his half day for me and we ate almost nonstop. HAHAHAHAHA

And if you're wondering.. It's not a surprise anyway. One thing that i'll never miss is blowing out candles. 

Have a good one,

Xx,

F.r.l turns NINETEEN