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2.48 AM Melbourne, 3053 I cant seem to just fall asleep. Read through my previous posts, I think I have this personality disorder wtf. Or is it my brain, cause i do not think that I could write that sort of stuff. Wtf.  Nevermind.  I don't know why people like to make their own "truth" regarding someone else's life without even asking or telling the person about it. I mean yea, sometimes they do it because they care, but please, can you mind your own life first.. Why speak bad of people when you don't have the right to. I used to not care about this, but I can't take it when the people i love are hurt by these small things. They are suffering and suffered enough. Come to think of it. Think deeply and freely. Have I ever said anything bad eventhough I seen, and still seeing a lot of things? 

It has been four months since my last post, and that four months, my life has been going on a some how nonstop roller coaster ride. There's always a lot that I've been wanting to pour out. Been avoiding it to live a less drama-queeny life. But now, I'll take it as inevitable. My life is just always full of colours and excitement, and nowadays with time bombs that sometimes sparks and shine beautifully. Despite shit happened and still happens, I'm actually Grateful for being able to travel a lot this year, well still like around Victoria but the trips were all superb, super blessed for beautifully made Victoria. Precisely I went to Mount Buller, Philip Island, and Great Ocean Road. Surely will blog about all of these places when I have time.. Sunday night my dad broke the news, it is crystal clear now. and i can't run away from it. worst part is i don't even have the guts to cry, or i'm simply that strong. everything that i had built in Melbourne will be ...

I spent my childhood in a country where the eruption of Krakatoa happened. If you're wondering what's Krakatoa, go on and click  here Well now I have to admit that i was a little brat who longed for earthquake during school time so everyone can go home. I can't remember precisely but the earthquake that got me in awe was the Nias Tsunami. TVs and Newspapers talked about it, even the TV Crew cried in front of the camera. I had new friends from Nias who survived and moved to my school. I was still too young back then to realize how an earthquake can cause pain and sadness in someone. Brainless it is wtf. Till today, I was enjoying a bowl of Indomie and quality time with my friends in a karaoke bar. All of sudden, we saw everyone running away from the aisle, I was insensitive again, wtf sorry, but one of my friends who sat nearby the aisle door shouted "COMEON! EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!!" I panicked too so four of us made our way to the front. The tremors were real like ...

Exhausted from endless expectation. Why can't people just be grateful for what they have and stop asking for change. If you're wondering where i have been, the whole past two months have been up and down, no words to describe what's happening. Some days i really want to bawl it out but then my life is not a game which i can restart. So yea, been choosing to not make any speeches that i would regret. Smile, and be faithful cause the Creator will be with you.  But then.. Lucy always thought that she should not be here the first place.. Here she is, sucking it all up and cry to sleep.  Oh, Poor Little Lucy. 

Following the quote "if it doesn't bother you till the next day, don't bother thinking of it" Ready to pen them down yet my fingers are stuck between the keyboards not knowing where to start from. Too young to determine the future, yet too fragile to be broken. In this situation, mind races to everywhere, worst to worst, stumbled upon the past which thee had a hard time letting go. Been taking happiness for granted though if it's meant to be then it is. One day, there's a kid, her name is Lucy. Lucy loves lollipop. But due to Lucy's health, she is banned from lollipop. Yet, everyday on her way to school, she sadly stare at other kids, cheerfully having their lollipop while talking to other friends about the flavor. She is isolated from the world and decided to go on without lollipop. Lollipop problem is solved. Cause Lucy is a strong girl and Lollipop doesn't have feelings. No one wants to hang out with Lucy cause she didn't have lollipop in her ch...

Woke up super early this morning. Being subjective, it was 7.30am. Daydream on my way to city, and off to swimming. Melbourne City Baths is offering $30 for 30 days membership so I thought why not, I love swimming anyways. Reality is i havent exercise in a while that my first swim after almost a year not going, i nearly fainted in the shower and took a nap right away when i see bed. Due to my tight schedule, today is my second dip. Oh Lord I unconsciously had my period lol. Nope guys, there's no such thing as red blood in the pool or so.  Did five fast and six slow laps. I planned to increase speed daily but with period days, i guess i can't dip tomorrow. Its okay.  Finished early so I went to Aldi to buy some honey and lemon for Jason since He said he had sore throat last night. I know i'm so caring. Dating him is like living in reality. Yep im being sacrastic. Me: Drink this okay, good for sore throat Jason: whats this * looking furious and curious* Me: honey le...

I never mentioned this before but five years ago, I stopped eating satay. Then red meat, gradually ended up stop from eating all kinds of animals. Just because I was a teenager and unable to provide three meals all by myself. I didn't refrain from eating chicken flavoured soup or any veggies served with meat. I answered lotsa questions regarding why I became a lacto-ovo vegetarian. My typical answer will be like, I used to eat anything, I remember sitting on grandpa's lap enjoying peking duck and the bun. yum. Hongkong was the most delicious country. Yum cha every morning like we don't have to worry bout nothing. (I had to mention Hongkong as my mom agrees that i ate too much pork ribs and all of those animals that they serve and their body parts, then i had a red meat trauma. LOL. wrong, guys.) but then one day i woke up realising that animals are not meant to be eaten so i stopped. hehe. Meanwhile, THE TRUE AND SUPER DETAILED STORY: Back then, my fave food was the Sate ...