fall rain love

Woke up super early this morning. Being subjective, it was 7.30am. Daydream on my way to city, and off to swimming. Melbourne City Baths is offering $30 for 30 days membership so I thought why not, I love swimming anyways. Reality is i havent exercise in a while that my first swim after almost a year not going, i nearly fainted in the shower and took a nap right away when i see bed. Due to my tight schedule, today is my second dip. Oh Lord I unconsciously had my period lol. Nope guys, there's no such thing as red blood in the pool or so.  Did five fast and six slow laps. I planned to increase speed daily but with period days, i guess i can't dip tomorrow. Its okay.  Finished early so I went to Aldi to buy some honey and lemon for Jason since He said he had sore throat last night. I know i'm so caring. Dating him is like living in reality. Yep im being sacrastic. Me: Drink this okay, good for sore throat Jason: whats this * looking furious and curious* Me: honey le...

I never mentioned this before but five years ago, I stopped eating satay. Then red meat, gradually ended up stop from eating all kinds of animals. Just because I was a teenager and unable to provide three meals all by myself. I didn't refrain from eating chicken flavoured soup or any veggies served with meat. I answered lotsa questions regarding why I became a lacto-ovo vegetarian. My typical answer will be like, I used to eat anything, I remember sitting on grandpa's lap enjoying peking duck and the bun. yum. Hongkong was the most delicious country. Yum cha every morning like we don't have to worry bout nothing. (I had to mention Hongkong as my mom agrees that i ate too much pork ribs and all of those animals that they serve and their body parts, then i had a red meat trauma. LOL. wrong, guys.) but then one day i woke up realising that animals are not meant to be eaten so i stopped. hehe. Meanwhile, THE TRUE AND SUPER DETAILED STORY: Back then, my fave food was the Sate ...

Time bring people closer yet further.  Where is the spark joy? Used to be there whenever eyes meet another pair of eyes. Thou shalt not take the happiness for granted again. Is this what they always say about getting way to comfy? True colours are respected. But where's the smile. Where's the spark joy. Where? Time is going to determine what is going to happen.

Still can't get over last night.Loud music is addictive, yes. But on some point you just can't ignore what's going on, like how the guards took a glance at everybody's movement. No offense but there were too many guys who were trying to take advantage of the situation. If you know what I mean.. When you're there, you can tell which one is just trying to blend in and which one is dangerous wtf. There's one asian guard recognised me and my friends cause he kept checking on us. Double wtf. I rarely remember people's face but uh, he got the hottie shoulder and those abs which my boyfriend used to have so yea i remember him too. One of my friend even got uncomfortable, and thats a wrap of the night!

Well, i'm nineteen when i'm writing this. So much happening for a nineteen years old girl to know and understand. Yet, some things will just gone with the wind. Some will eventually scar you for life and so on.. Dear Dian, If you ever get the chance to read this, firstly you need to be grateful to True Source as you're still alive by now. HAHAHAHA. Secondly, you need to know why a nineteen years old you wrote this kind of letter. Earlier today, your sis scolded her sons and it was heartbreaking. I couldn't say anything since it's her kids and she got the right to educate them in her very own way. Anyhow today I learnt to not to be like her when i grow up, cause remember you got scarred somehow about your childhood. You didn't want that to happen to your kids, don't you? After reading all of these paragraph, you're still not married yet, come back next time. wtf. or if you've been trying but you're not having babies yet, then make another serie...

I need to write. I need to write. That's what i've been thinking. My parents are over here, for like.. 3 months. That explain why I'm doing school when everybody's having their holiday. Cause i don't wanna get wasted yo. Turns out it has been the busiest three weeks in my life. I just hope that everything would be normal soon. Not that i mind living a busy life but.. I mind how it affects my mind and soul. And not being able to spend more time with loved ones. Tell you what. It's the 6th day i've been taking carbs all day, you name it wtf i got it all over my stomach. Bread toast rice noodle thin noodle egg noodle thick noodle lolll brb praying. I feel guilty about how i'm taking God's blessing as granted. .... It's been a while since i pray or even walk or even say Grace. I got too caught up with my life yo. Anyway, i'm 19 this year and 20 next year.. And i don't even own anything. Not even a house or a car or lots of savings. Wtf. A...

Have you ever do something that you shouldn't do? Not because it's against law or something serious like that but you just need to know how it feels after doing that and you ended up having the thing lingering on your mind all day long. Often happened in my past few relationships, my curiosity led me to lotsa things that i shouldn't have known. The fact that i could just live happily and love lavishly if i didn't do it, i totally ignored it. I just had to do it as when i set my mind that i should do the thing, i'll do it. Funny thing is no matter how i love or appreciate that person, the feeling is just gone in a snap.