fall rain love

Time bring people closer yet further.  Where is the spark joy? Used to be there whenever eyes meet another pair of eyes. Thou shalt not take the happiness for granted again. Is this what they always say about getting way to comfy? True colours are respected. But where's the smile. Where's the spark joy. Where? Time is going to determine what is going to happen.

Still can't get over last night.Loud music is addictive, yes. But on some point you just can't ignore what's going on, like how the guards took a glance at everybody's movement. No offense but there were too many guys who were trying to take advantage of the situation. If you know what I mean.. When you're there, you can tell which one is just trying to blend in and which one is dangerous wtf. There's one asian guard recognised me and my friends cause he kept checking on us. Double wtf. I rarely remember people's face but uh, he got the hottie shoulder and those abs which my boyfriend used to have so yea i remember him too. One of my friend even got uncomfortable, and thats a wrap of the night!

Well, i'm nineteen when i'm writing this. So much happening for a nineteen years old girl to know and understand. Yet, some things will just gone with the wind. Some will eventually scar you for life and so on.. Dear Dian, If you ever get the chance to read this, firstly you need to be grateful to True Source as you're still alive by now. HAHAHAHA. Secondly, you need to know why a nineteen years old you wrote this kind of letter. Earlier today, your sis scolded her sons and it was heartbreaking. I couldn't say anything since it's her kids and she got the right to educate them in her very own way. Anyhow today I learnt to not to be like her when i grow up, cause remember you got scarred somehow about your childhood. You didn't want that to happen to your kids, don't you? After reading all of these paragraph, you're still not married yet, come back next time. wtf. or if you've been trying but you're not having babies yet, then make another serie...

I need to write. I need to write. That's what i've been thinking. My parents are over here, for like.. 3 months. That explain why I'm doing school when everybody's having their holiday. Cause i don't wanna get wasted yo. Turns out it has been the busiest three weeks in my life. I just hope that everything would be normal soon. Not that i mind living a busy life but.. I mind how it affects my mind and soul. And not being able to spend more time with loved ones. Tell you what. It's the 6th day i've been taking carbs all day, you name it wtf i got it all over my stomach. Bread toast rice noodle thin noodle egg noodle thick noodle lolll brb praying. I feel guilty about how i'm taking God's blessing as granted. .... It's been a while since i pray or even walk or even say Grace. I got too caught up with my life yo. Anyway, i'm 19 this year and 20 next year.. And i don't even own anything. Not even a house or a car or lots of savings. Wtf. A...

Have you ever do something that you shouldn't do? Not because it's against law or something serious like that but you just need to know how it feels after doing that and you ended up having the thing lingering on your mind all day long. Often happened in my past few relationships, my curiosity led me to lotsa things that i shouldn't have known. The fact that i could just live happily and love lavishly if i didn't do it, i totally ignored it. I just had to do it as when i set my mind that i should do the thing, i'll do it. Funny thing is no matter how i love or appreciate that person, the feeling is just gone in a snap.

what if i tell you.. first few hours after finished watching the last episode, i thought someone might just kill me just because of they feel like to. wtf but really. i even cried cause when i woke up, i was home alone. dialed my bf to come, turns out that he's late as ever that i have to rush to see the kitchen boys. Later that day, i had to throw tantrum cause of something that the anxiety gone with the wind. When the night comes, i set it up to myself that it's all only in my mind. wtf and now i'm stress free. SPOILER ALERT!! . . . . I was excited to watch at first but then when i realised that all of the victims are mostly young and innocent GIRLS and there were mostly no motives at all. THE cases happened cause the SUSPECT has desire to kill or even power to protect themselves. Which is actually quite realistic. What i cannot accept the most is how the current detective communicate with the past detective and actually the future might change if they even ...

18-21 November 2013 Dad got some work to do around Parapat, so mama and I tagged along. From Medan, it takes around 4 hrs drive back then. Not sure about now, maybe after three years, some changes are made? What's famous about this Lake is it is the largest lake in Southest Asia and were made from eruption and the cone of the volcano collapsed and made the Samosir Island, which is just on the centre of Danau Toba. To reach Samosir Island, you must ride on a ferry. I went there once or twice for school excursion.   I was so obsessed with my ring back then.   Even three years ago, i couldn't open my eyes for the sunshine. lol. Fifteen minutes drive from parapat, we visited the detention house of the very first president of Indonesia, Soekarno. Due to political reasons back then, he had to move here for awhile. If i am not mistaken, it should be around 1946-1948, just a few years after Indonesia proclaimed INDEPENDENcy and were still fighting fo...