fall rain love

Still can't get over last night.Loud music is addictive, yes. But on some point you just can't ignore what's going on, like how the guards took a glance at everybody's movement. No offense but there were too many guys who were trying to take advantage of the situation. If you know what I mean.. When you're there, you can tell which one is just trying to blend in and which one is dangerous wtf. There's one asian guard recognised me and my friends cause he kept checking on us. Double wtf. I rarely remember people's face but uh, he got the hottie shoulder and those abs which my boyfriend used to have so yea i remember him too. One of my friend even got uncomfortable, and thats a wrap of the night!

Well, i'm nineteen when i'm writing this. So much happening for a nineteen years old girl to know and understand. Yet, some things will just gone with the wind. Some will eventually scar you for life and so on.. Dear Dian, If you ever get the chance to read this, firstly you need to be grateful to True Source as you're still alive by now. HAHAHAHA. Secondly, you need to know why a nineteen years old you wrote this kind of letter. Earlier today, your sis scolded her sons and it was heartbreaking. I couldn't say anything since it's her kids and she got the right to educate them in her very own way. Anyhow today I learnt to not to be like her when i grow up, cause remember you got scarred somehow about your childhood. You didn't want that to happen to your kids, don't you? After reading all of these paragraph, you're still not married yet, come back next time. wtf. or if you've been trying but you're not having babies yet, then make another serie...

I need to write. I need to write. That's what i've been thinking. My parents are over here, for like.. 3 months. That explain why I'm doing school when everybody's having their holiday. Cause i don't wanna get wasted yo. Turns out it has been the busiest three weeks in my life. I just hope that everything would be normal soon. Not that i mind living a busy life but.. I mind how it affects my mind and soul. And not being able to spend more time with loved ones. Tell you what. It's the 6th day i've been taking carbs all day, you name it wtf i got it all over my stomach. Bread toast rice noodle thin noodle egg noodle thick noodle lolll brb praying. I feel guilty about how i'm taking God's blessing as granted. .... It's been a while since i pray or even walk or even say Grace. I got too caught up with my life yo. Anyway, i'm 19 this year and 20 next year.. And i don't even own anything. Not even a house or a car or lots of savings. Wtf. A...