fall rain love

Well well well where to start from.  I have terrible memory.  I’m recapping life in Australia for the last five years.  I’m grateful.  I’m moody. 

Dear you, Since you have short term memory loss, and seems to change phone every two years, here’s the half end of 2017 because it seems like you’re due for a new phone. Oh Love, you’re supposed to move to Tasmania with your sister this time around, but you just dodged it like a pro. You get to remain in Melbie, and you thought you were happy.  got to watch GD concert, paid the ticket with my own money! DAMN IT FEELS GOOD. Hahahahaha, after the emotional breakup that we had, he was just the most full of surprise man. I never really fancy flowers, but he put this in the toilet because I really fancy my toilet time. Hahhahaa.   Here, just in case you’re wondering where all the money that you earned went. It is kinda embarrasing to post my hanging out pictures out, but here’s the drinks, feels right. Nothing else.  Alll these time, money earned money wasted on drinks and hanging out. Boy glad it was not long enough to turn me to an addict. 

2.48 AM Melbourne, 3053 I cant seem to just fall asleep. Read through my previous posts, I think I have this personality disorder wtf. Or is it my brain, cause i do not think that I could write that sort of stuff. Wtf.  Nevermind.  I don't know why people like to make their own "truth" regarding someone else's life without even asking or telling the person about it. I mean yea, sometimes they do it because they care, but please, can you mind your own life first.. Why speak bad of people when you don't have the right to. I used to not care about this, but I can't take it when the people i love are hurt by these small things. They are suffering and suffered enough. Come to think of it. Think deeply and freely. Have I ever said anything bad eventhough I seen, and still seeing a lot of things? 

It has been four months since my last post, and that four months, my life has been going on a some how nonstop roller coaster ride. There's always a lot that I've been wanting to pour out. Been avoiding it to live a less drama-queeny life. But now, I'll take it as inevitable. My life is just always full of colours and excitement, and nowadays with time bombs that sometimes sparks and shine beautifully. Despite shit happened and still happens, I'm actually Grateful for being able to travel a lot this year, well still like around Victoria but the trips were all superb, super blessed for beautifully made Victoria. Precisely I went to Mount Buller, Philip Island, and Great Ocean Road. Surely will blog about all of these places when I have time.. Sunday night my dad broke the news, it is crystal clear now. and i can't run away from it. worst part is i don't even have the guts to cry, or i'm simply that strong. everything that i had built in Melbourne will be

I spent my childhood in a country where the eruption of Krakatoa happened. If you're wondering what's Krakatoa, go on and click  here Well now I have to admit that i was a little brat who longed for earthquake during school time so everyone can go home. I can't remember precisely but the earthquake that got me in awe was the Nias Tsunami. TVs and Newspapers talked about it, even the TV Crew cried in front of the camera. I had new friends from Nias who survived and moved to my school. I was still too young back then to realize how an earthquake can cause pain and sadness in someone. Brainless it is wtf. Till today, I was enjoying a bowl of Indomie and quality time with my friends in a karaoke bar. All of sudden, we saw everyone running away from the aisle, I was insensitive again, wtf sorry, but one of my friends who sat nearby the aisle door shouted "COMEON! EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!!" I panicked too so four of us made our way to the front. The tremors were real like

Exhausted from endless expectation. Why can't people just be grateful for what they have and stop asking for change. If you're wondering where i have been, the whole past two months have been up and down, no words to describe what's happening. Some days i really want to bawl it out but then my life is not a game which i can restart. So yea, been choosing to not make any speeches that i would regret. Smile, and be faithful cause the Creator will be with you.  But then.. Lucy always thought that she should not be here the first place.. Here she is, sucking it all up and cry to sleep.  Oh, Poor Little Lucy.